Thursday, 23 May 2013

Even superheroes struggle some mornings.

Continuing the superhero theme from yesterday, I certainly didn't feel like one this morning when leaving the house. Ethan had a lovely sleep from 7pm until 5am, only waking once when our surround sound doorbell rang and scared him! I certainly wasn't exhausted besides the usual tiredness of life. Despite this, I picked Ethan up, cuddling and kissing him goodbye and didn't want to leave him. I just wanted to get back into my pyjamas and spend all day at home.

As the day has progressed I have been busy and distracted of course but still looking forward to getting home to my boys. Still yearning for home.

Days like these are less frequent now but some mornings I still feel overcome with guilt, like a shroud sharply tightened, catching my breath the best I can. More than guilt though is the longing on these mornings. The longing to just wake up and be with my Son, the longing to give him everything, the longing to just be Mummy.

At least I am off next week, so while I have lots of work to get through at home, the Mummy days I long for are close in sight.
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